mixup feeling

hmm.. how should i start this?
2weeks semester break end, new sem started!
i am not ready to start this new sem yet.
this is the first time ever that i felt so not ready for school!!!
probably too much to enjoy and things to do during holidays.

oooohhhh... the main thing about this post is last semester Result!!!
finally i got an 'A' in UTAR!!!
my first ever 'A' (international finance)
but the thing that could spoil the joy is one fail subject. One subject that make me have to extend my university life~
oh~~~~ should i be happy?? or sad?
this result make me both happy and disappointed. it just make me laugh until today.
is it fate? or is it me that could not study well? haha..

anyhow, this is it. my supposedly 3years uni life extend to undefined.... LOL
this is just life. u can't have everything as u expected. and u just have to deal with it.
gotta make new plans for future.......

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exam finally over
and holiday start!

and yet 8th May is another historical day for Malaysia
crowd gather at Kelana Jaya stadium
fight for democracy
peoples that attend the gathering is far more than u can imagine
is even merrier than celebration of independence day

All Malaysian
young and old, regardless races
demand for one thing. that the opposition party have fight for years
a corruption free, non-racist government
and now we have achieve it through the opposition party
something that the current government is unable and never able to achieve
and u disgrace us as ungrateful

Where is the government?
Can u hear our voice?
and catch what we want? instead of making the newspaper headlines 'what the chinese want?'
Do u care about our living? or just ur fancy clothes, luxury handbags, jewellery that a normal people could never ever save enough for a lifetime to get one of it.

We want peace and harmony
we want fair election
we want a clean and corruption free government

and yet, after decades of corruption
u do not correct it. u demand for more
and u don't understand how ur citizen struggle to make for living yet u rob from them

We are educated,
we will not fall for ur trick and treat(threat) *is not halloween*
please don't starts the racial issue
do not try to break us apart, as the harder u push the stronger we are

The people are the government of the country.
u forget how u get up to where u are now

Malaysian's Malaysia

13th General Election has end
The result is not as we expected
But this time, we see all nation with one vision
regardless of races, religion, we stand as Malaysian
we protect our country
we want a better Malaysia
a better future for Malaysian

Through this election, we see peoples united as Malaysian
we never know how strong we are until we held together.
* we can easily break a pair of chopstick, but hard to break a stack of chopstick*
We fight for with only one mission. A government free of corruption

The opposition party do not make it as the federal government
But the journey do not stop here.
This is just the beginning.
Malaysian, please be patient and do not give up!
Changes need time, long time
revolution do not happen in only 1day or 1month.

We are not racist and yet the country leaders like to start racial issue
try to break us apart, and so easy for them to control us
we are educated, we have knowledge, we know what happen in the country
and we know what u are doing behind.
as what i saw from fb, 'don't mess with the 90s
We are youth now and the future of the country.
we are concern about our country issue
and we can analyse things. *don't try to fraud us with fake information*

i can see a better Malaysia
with the people live in peace and harmony
together we are strong.
This is Malaysian's Malaysia
the country that belongs to all Malaysian
and the land where our blood pour

IF...
if i fail this academic writing subject....
i will probably do some vandalism...
what a f**king subject...
just an english subject and it going to fail me
get the lowest overall mark?!
and the lowest mark for my essay? how low can that mark be?
r u f**king kidding me?
u have totalling spoil my mood for this examination and the mind to study for this subject.
i'm so regret for taking this stupid subject.
not gaining any knowledge at all and wasting time.
i just wanted to skip this stupid useless elective subject!!!!
is not anything helpful at all!

If.. i fail academic writing, i will kick UTAR ass.
isn't these elective subject suppose to be something let us relax for others hectic subject?
what the hell that u wan me to fail and repeat and fail and repeat those f**king useless subject????!!!!!
i just HATE this so much.
and don't add oil to fire!